As I sit here taking a little break, while food is boiling on the stove. I thought about the last few months of my life. It has been hard, but it has been worth it. I’ve put so many hours in at work to pull myself out of yet another rut I had been abandoned in by the same person.
But also reminiscing about the holidays over the years with my sons. They are the reason I’m single. You can’t have a relationship with anyone that hates your own children.
So many memories cooking thanksgiving dinners when my sons were younger, running around just being boys lol. It seemed hectic at the time, but I wouldn’t change a minute. I miss it.
I absolutely love having a home again. My own home that no man can cause me to lose. I’ll never allow it again. I spent so much of my life making men a better life, that I forgot about myself. This stage of my life is all about me, my sons, & my grandsons. Toxicity is no longer allowed in our lives.
I know God will send me a man that’s meant to be mine, which is why I won’t have anything to do with anyone. If he’s sent from God, I’ll just feel it. I’ll just know.. Until then, I’ll keep doing what I’m doing. Enjoying a stress free life filled with happiness, laughter, new memories being made, etc.
I really miss my momma today. I can close my eyes, or look up to the sky, & I can still see her smile. She was so sweet, & absolutely beautiful inside & out. The older I get, the more I see her in my face, & I love that!
I wrote a post awhile back. Can’t remember the name, but it was about a Christmas miracle finding the love of my life. Maybe…this Christmas will be that Christmas. Because I have finally let go of my ex, which I think held me back in a lot of areas. I do believe God allowed me to go through it, but he never left my side during it. God protected me.. So I’m being hopeful, & wishing that this Christmas I’ll meet my final & real soulmate.
I hope that all of you are having a wonderful Thanksgiving!! I thank you so much for following me & all of the kind & uplifting words through my struggles.
P. S. As I’m feeling better all around, I’m itching to start writing again. So hopefully I’ll get those books finished & published soon.