September 10, 2017

That moment when you find yourself…

Ahhhh. It’s truly wonderful. I never really thought that anybody actually did find their self to be honest. At least that’s what it feels like to me. Two days ago I seemed to just wake up. I literally looked at everything and everyone very closely for awhile now. I knew what I wanted and what I didn’t want… All of a sudden.
I suppose after going through everything that I have and absolutely no longer wanting to continue this train wreck of a life I’ve been living, you just wake up. I appreciate all my little things probably more than the big things. I know what I have to do to fix any of my problems and stuff I can’t change, I’m viewing it differently. Maybe I snapped? Lol. Maybe I just simply woke up and said enough is enough! I know who I am and I know what I need or want in life.
For example, I like kicking my shoes off wherever I’m standing and leave them there until I want to wear that pair again. Silly?.. Yes lol, but that’s me. I hate doing dishes I night… So I don’t. And I despise putting away laundry haha, I will on occasion when I’m bored. Me= “Ima leave those right there” heehee! Not laziness, just it’s me. I keep other areas or things in tact though. I like blasting the stereo when I take a shower so I can dance in the shower and while I’m getting ready. ‘Little Things’!
I have become so excited about being a mammaw I can’t hardly stand it. I can’t wait to see him and hold him. I do things around the house and think “Well I’ll have to fix this or change that, I’ve got a grand baby on the way” lol. I’m loving it!! I do believe this little child has a big role on me changing as well.
As far as people, that’s a tough one. Sometimes it’s hard to figure them out. I’ve been going by their behaviors or actions. I don’t so much listen to words, hell anybody can talk you know. There are a few I’m sure I will have to walk away from eventually if they turn out just being toxic for me rather than being a blessing in my life. People are definitely harder to read especially if they are good at hiding their true self from everyone.
I’m at work so I’ll just leave this short. Gotta go lol.
Have a beautiful day!!!
Love, Lori

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